Elation

I am depressed, and I want to get " I " out of this depression. The opposite of depression is elation, I cannot force myself to be elated. I can, however, get drunk. This makes me wonderfully elated, and so when the next depression arrives, I have a quick cure.

The subsequent depressions have a way of getting deeper and blacker, because I am not digesting the depressed state and eliminating its poisons. So i need to get drunker to drown them. Very soon I begin to hate myself for getting so drunk, which makes me still more depressed -- and so it goes.

Alan Watts
Page 127
The Wisdom of Insecurity

You will become what you think about!

Having heard this, you may choose to think the same thing over and over again...

But you can never say again that you didn't know!